Love is patient, love is kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing but rejoices at the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. [1 Corinthians 13:4-7]
Its been kinda rough around here lately--Zach's been working lots of late nights and Forest has had quite a bit of unexplained crankiness and I guess I have as well. I've been trying to hard to find the balance between taking care of him 24-7/spending quality time with him and running errands/cooking/keeping the house clean/spending quality time with Zach and its been really hard for me. I feel like I can't do both very well yet and so each of them are done half-well and that leaves me feeling so guilty and sad. So last night, when Forest was not sleeping and was switching between hating everything/screaming and laughing/smiling/ being sweet, I decided to come up with some sort of physical reminder to love my family well--to be present and patient with them--and to remind me of the love and patience Jesus has for me. Its in Forest's room because he is often the one that tests my patience the most but also because he is the one who is constantly teaching me how to love better. I see so much of myself in him when he is throwing a tantrum or being whiny. I understand a bit more of how we do nothing to deserve the love of Jesus and yet he loves us so so much. So I am using this banner as a reminder to love well and to never stop asking Jesus for more patience. A reminder that love snuggles and love wakes up in the middle of the night and love doesn't get angry when the baby is yelling or husband has to work late and love changes twelve diapers a day and love keeps a good attitude and love takes time to encourage and kiss and smile and snuggle some more.