we weren't planning on becoming parents for probably two or three more years. we had so many plans and things to do before a baby could come along--to hike the John Muir trail this summer, hike part of the Appalachian trail at some point, roadtrip up to Alaska, work our full-time jobs and make as much money as we can, for me to finish school ASAP, etc. But the Lord has his own plans as well, and his are way better than ours could ever be, even if that's not how I saw it at first. I was sad and angry when we first found out I was pregnant. we had done everything right--I was taking birth control every day for the past four months, without fail--I even had an alarm on my phone especially to remind me to take it! we had our plans and things we wanted to do and now we are going to have a kid. a plan-changing, fun-sucking, poop machine. I was questioning God's timing and not trusting in his plan at all--and I was mad at him! we are so not ready to be parents! we had only been married for almost three months when we found out and had been planning on having a lot more time for us to just be young married peeps! So I may have been angry-crying when I walked downstairs to show Zach the pregnancy tests. but he was so so excited since the moment he saw the tests! he picked me up and hugged me and spun me around and couldn't even stop smiling that big goofy smile-- and I was so thankful for his excitement.

now, we are so looking forward to this tiny little human. we are learning so much about babies and parenting and what's going on inside me every single week (side note: it is literally a miracle what goes on during pregnancy--I don't know how ANYONE can say that there is no creator! there is so so much happening at any given moment, it is incredible!). I am eating tons of vegetables (trying to, anyways) and protein for the growing babe, and taking lots and lots of good vitamins. I stopped drinking coffee and beer and started drinking juice and smoothies everyday instead. I started crocheting tiny beanies and a tiny blanket. we can't even wait. and although we don't feel even a little bit prepared (is anyone ever really fully prepared for a brand new baby?), we are so excited and thankful for this new adventure. God knew what he was doing when he decided we should be parents so we are deciding to trust him and this crazy plan of his. (pray for us please!!)


cheers! han